Easier Said Than Done

Enough Said.

Stability

     So far, today has been fairly difficult, but I'm managing it. I only had one anxiety attack, though, so I'll consider that progress. My urges to restrict were pretty high up there, and still are, but I ate a reasonable amount and plan on eating dinner. The last time I followed a meal plan was when I was required to at Renfrew in April of last year, but I really don't think I need to. I currently am not seeing a nutritionist, so I don't even have a meal plan to follow. I'm okay with that. Recently, I've been eating well and my weight has been stable, and I honestly think I can handle this on my own.
     I know this next statement will contradict that very last sentence, but I'm going to write it anyway. I am in between two different therapy sessions with two different therapists (well, three if we're going to get technical about it) right now. I just had an individual session with my DBT therapist, Carol, and now I'm at home with my dad waiting for our family-based team to arrive, Deb and John. Emily, my sister, has soccer practice tonight, so she doesn't have to participate like she usually does. She hates therapy almost as much as I do. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't appreciate the time and effort all of these therapists have put into me; it's that I'm not too fond of sharing personal thoughts and feelings with people who are practically strangers.
     I should really stop rambling about such trivial things. Sorry, guys. I've got a lot of things on my mind, none of which I'm particularly comfortable sharing on a publicly accessible blog. They basically boil down to thoughts produced by pretty strong emotions.
    So, enough about me. How are you guys holding up? Leave a comment, write me a letter, message me on Facebook, etc. Do whatever. All I ask is that you fill me in on how you're doing.
                                                                         With love,
                                                                          Erin.

My Very First Post On My Very First Blog

     I'm not quite sure how to go about doing this. As stated in the title of this post, I have never done this before. So, I suppose I'll begin by telling you about the types of things I intend to do with this blog.

• post words of encouragement, like quotes and sayings, for those who are struggling
• regularly document my experiences with my eating disorder (no numbers referring to weights, BMI, calories, etc. will be mentioned)
• express urges to self-harm through writing and asking for support (nothing graphic will be written and no self-harm photos will be posted)
• post letters to people who I can't send things to
• post about the usual teenager stuff, like high school, friendships and relationships, my family (you should expect to read a lot about my amazing little sister), driving lessons, etc.
• put up cool things I find on www.stumbleupon.com, poems and lyrics that either I or someone else wrote, maybe audio clips or little videos of some of my songs (I've never done that before, either), interesting news articles, etc.

     Okay, so, I'm gonna get on facebook now and tell everybody about this. I hope you like this! Come again soon! :D